My Journey to Motherhood

Ever since I was a little girl I dreamed of being a mom. I always had a baby doll with me and would often sleep with one at night. My favorite baby doll was my water baby and I used to pray that if the rapture came or if I died that I would be able to take my water baby with me to Heaven, lol. I figured God would allow that since there can be no sadness in Heaven and I would definitely be sad without my water baby so therefore he would make an exception!

Throughout junior high, high school, and college all of my jobs centered around children. I babysat, nannied, worked at daycares...etc. I taught for a few years after college and daydreamed about the day I would have my own to teach (I've always wanted to homeschool). My husband Adam and I just weren't ready the first few years of marriage. He was still in college and when he graduated we just wanted to enjoy each other's company for a while and form a strong bond before adding to our family. Even though I really wanted to be a mom, I also knew that it was important for us to have that alone time and I also wanted us to both be ready for this commitment, financially and emotionally.

Well, we developed such a strong bond so quickly, one that I never thought was possible to be honest. After seeing my parent's marriage, then divorce, I just assumed that at some point things would go bad and we would end up fighting all the time...not that I wanted that to happen or doubted our love. But after the first year, then the second and third, I was amazed at how happy we were and how strong our love and friendship was! After the 4th year and nearing the 5th year, we were still in the "honeymoon" stage. I missed him during the day when we were apart and couldn't wait to be together again.

We've been able to travel together and have some great memories because of it! It seems like each anniversary gets bigger and more elaborate, lol!

Anni 1-Cabin in Mentone AL...Adam ski'd for the first time at a tiny ski resort with fake snow! :)

Anni 2-Destin Fl...centered around food, lol. This was at Ruth's Chris...Mmmmm!

Anni 3-Carnival Cruise to the Bahamas!!

 Anni 4-Winter Park, Colorado...we went skiing for real this time! ;)

...and snowmobiling! This was during a snow mobile break!

And finally...Anni 5-Anchorage and Fairbanks Alaska!! Let me go back a few months...We were at a good place. Adam had a great job at a new company, we made the big move to Houston Texas (I love Texas), we were at a good place financially, and more importantly...we were both READY!! Ready to become parents! Soooo....we started trying! We were so excited! Three months passed and nothing...I started charting my bbt the 3rd month and realized we had been off on my most fertile days. Even though 3 months doesn't seem long...it definitely is when you are trying! I thought it would never happen! Adam was already talking about seeing a fertility specialist, lol! He's a little impatient! 

Well, we knew that our 5 year anni trip was coming up in January and I told Adam that this would be our last try for a while. We had planned a Christmas cabin getaway with family and friends and I didn't want to have a baby in December or be 9 months preggo at Christmas because then we wouldn't be able to go. I didn't even want to think about not trying because now that we started we didn't want to stop until we became parents! I pushed those thoughts out of my head and we went on our 5 year anni trip to Alaska. It was AWESOME!!! We had such a great time!!!

This was our last night in Alaska! Little did we know that we were parents at this time!!! And yes, since life starts at conception...we were parents! :)

I noticed the last day or so while in Alaska that I was having hot flashes...weird! I thought maybe I was just wind-burned or something. After arriving back home and getting back into our routine, things were normal for the next week or so. Then one night I was REALLY thirsty...out of nowhere. But that was just one night so I didn't think much of it. Then maybe 2 days before AF was supposed to make her appearance...I started getting unusual cramps and a pulling feeling. Nothing major, just unusual. I would dream about the cramps at night and it would wake me up...strange! The night before AF, I told Adam about these weird happenings and he immediately said that I was pregnant! I thought so too, but didn't want to get my hopes up so I tried to play it down. We laid in bed talking about baby names for a while...just dreaming about having a baby and being parents. 

The next day I ran out and got a home pregnancy test. I couldn't wait for Adam to come home that night so we could take the test. He was a little late coming home...I think I called him every 10 minutes to see if he had left yet, lol. FINALLY he walked in the door and we ran straight to the bathroom to take the test. After taking the test, I put it down on the counter and told him not to peek. I walked to the kitchen to throw away the pee cup and before I made it back to the bathroom I heard him yell excitedly and jump up and down. I came running and he met me at the doorway. I said, "You didn't look did you?!" He said, "No, of course not..." but I knew better. He had a gleam in his eye and such a sweet, tender smile and then he hugged me. I dashed into the bathroom and grabbed the test...it was positive!! My hand started shaking and I just couldn't believe it! Wow! We were going to have a family! I was finally a mom!!

It was all so surreal! We immediately started calling family and let them in on the good news! We just couldn't wait...even if we were to have a miscarriage...there was still a little life inside me NOW and we were just too excited not to share that with the people we loved! 

Sooo....what did we do to celebrate?!? We went out that weekend and got 2 puppies, lol! What were we thinking?? I'm still not sure, but that's what we did! Meet Zoe and Daisy!

So to conclude, things could not have worked out more perfectly! We've had our alone time, we've traveled, and we've conceived on our 5th wedding anniversary...how cool is that! Life is great! :)